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一个孤独贫穷又迷茫的青年人

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会把自己的人生引向何处

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当一个人偏离生活太久

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他还有机会重新开始吗

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今天想跟大家分享托斯托耶夫斯基的《罪语法》

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托的小说一直被称为是心理小说

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因为他的小说总有大段的内心独白

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《罪语法》虽然写于19世纪

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但故事主人公的精神状态

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完美贴合当下的青年人

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如果你感慨于生活的疲软

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既不敢自毁又难以自爱时

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那么托斯托耶夫斯基就是一记猛药

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作为心理区博主

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我一直渴望拓展心理内容的边界

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那今天就让我们一起进入这个神圣又痛苦的故事

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读完之后你会发现

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所有当下的堕落他都通往救赎

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故事的主角拉斯卡尔尼科夫是一个大学生

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用现在的话说他的死人感很重

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主角的爸爸早逝

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妈妈和妹妹在乡下打工来供养他上大学

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他妈呢早先是一个没落贵族

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后来变穷了

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她不了解自己的儿子

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每天在想啥干啥

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她就总觉得

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我儿子上大学了

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那将来一定有出息

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一方面呢

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她妈非常渴望为儿子牺牲

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她经常说

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我们就算是啃黑面包

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也一定会供你上大学的

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但另外一方面

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她妈又非常渴望儿子的救赎

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她渴望自己的儿子早日毕业

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带领整个家族走出泥潭

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书里有一句话非常有意思

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有时我们爱一个人

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就像恨一个人似的

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除了来自家庭的精神压力外

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主角的个人生活也非常混乱

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他是法学生

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早先带家教

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后来他发现家教的收入太微薄了

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用自己宝贵的生命换得这一点微薄的收入

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简直就是一种侮辱

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同时他也觉得学校学不到什么东西

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于是他也就休学了

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主角把自己几乎全部的时间用来干一件事

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那就是家里蹲

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书里作者花了非常大量的篇幅

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去描写主角租住的房子

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那个房子狭窄清写

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就像一口棺材

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主角就像一只鼠鼠

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蜷缩在房子里

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有时好几天

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既不出门也不吃饭

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他就经常处于一种

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半梦半醒的状态下

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我有时也有那种

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长时间不出门的经历

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这个时候房间就会变成

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一种可怕的怪物

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它好像会融化会变形

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而处在其中的我也跟着变形了

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尤其是傍晚的时候

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我一觉醒来

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房间空无一人

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房外的人都在进行自己的生活

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这时呢我就会从脚底涌起一股阴郁感

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大家知道呢

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对于一个长时间不出门的孤独的人

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最可怕的是什么吗

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对于一个孤独的人

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最倒霉的就是他的思维异常活跃

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主角虽然体弱

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但他的心里总有一种巨大的狂热

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他总在脑子里琢磨

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为什么我会落到今天的境地

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他把这个答案归结于是思维框架

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用流行的说法就是

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他觉得自己的格局不够大

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他觉得他之所以落魄

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是因为他不敢把权力从地上捡起来

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他遵循庸俗的道德标准

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他过于懦弱

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他不敢成为强人

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而所谓强人就是敢于突破边界的人

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这就特别像我们现在看那短视频

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讲90后怒赚几个亿

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被访者呢

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总是会依构很大的

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跟我们传授富人的赚钱之道

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我们感慨于富人的杀伐果断

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雷厉风行

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那在主角那个时代

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他也有强人偶像

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那就是拿破仑

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主角心想

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有朝一日

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我一定要成为

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拿破仑这样的人

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其实大家会发现

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生活越艰难

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越容易诞生强人精神

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因为像蚂蚁一样

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一点一点的

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去构筑自己的生活

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实在是太疲惫

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太不酷

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太没有希望了

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还不如就来一种

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狂风骤雨

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主角一开始

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只是在脑子里盘算

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但直到有一天

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他收到了一封来自

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妈妈信

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他妈在信里说呢

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他妹以前当家教

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被雇主当做小三解雇了

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好在误会澄清

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现在呢

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你妹找了个好出路

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有一个男的想娶她

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这样呢

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以后我跟你妹的吃穿就不愁了

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而且呢

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告诉你个好消息

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你妹夫他在律所工作

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你可一定要好好学习

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将来妈妈运筹一番

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你以后也能去律所

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这封信虽然写的很积极

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但敏感如主角

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他觉察到了

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他的妈妈是想通过牺牲妹妹

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来保全自己

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家里人都在自我安慰说

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这妹夫人挺不错的

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但所有人都知道这是在卖妹妹

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给妹妹办婚礼的钱还需要外借

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但他妈安慰儿子说

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用不了多久

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我就会给你寄上25卢布

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让你不要担心

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这封信逼迫主角

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不得不开始直面自己的生活

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他发现

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他已经偏离了他的生活太久

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这种现实与期待的巨大撕裂

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让主角难以密合

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如果他再不行动

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那么他的妹妹也将会被献祭

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积蓄在他内心的长久的烦恼

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就在妹妹出嫁的催化下

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化为了一个不可抗拒的念头

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于是主角决定他要去做一件大事

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大家想会什么大事呢

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那当然是杀人了

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他打算杀掉一个放高利贷的太太

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这老太太呢

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自私又狡猾

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每次有人找她借钱时

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她都会使出各种阴谋诡计

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让对方背上更高的利息

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这老太婆呢

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还有一个妹妹

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她经常对这个妹妹是又打又骂

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把她当做奴隶一样对待

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主角认为

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我杀死这个老太婆

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不过是为这个社会

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清除了一个狮子

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而老太婆的钱

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却可以用来造福更多的人

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比如说自己

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就可以用这个钱

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阻止妹妹的婚姻

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继续上大学

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她认为真正的强者

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是敢于为一种更大的正义

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来突破人伦底线的

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如果有人要改变这个社会的运转规则

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那么这个人就是他

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其实到这里呢

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我们可以回答第一个问题

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就是一个人他为什么会犯罪

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那是因为他认为自己有权犯罪

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当我们对具体的生活感到厌弃时

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我们都会在心里暗暗渴望自己成为某个大人物

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暗暗认为自己高于别人

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不管是校园霸凌

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高校教授出轨

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男性压迫女性

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我们对自己的下属撒气

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嘲笑不如自己的笨蛋

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这一切都是因为

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我们认为自己有权这么做

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决定杀人的那一刻起

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主角的内心发生了巨大的转折

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这也引出了本书的第二个主题

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当一个人决定背叛生活时

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他会遭遇什么

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在想象中

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主角认为自己是不可一世的拿破仑

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而实际上他是怎么杀人的呢

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他非常的慌乱

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他原本做了精密的计划

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构想着如何把斧头悬挂于胸口

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不要让对方看见

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如何踩点如何取钱

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就像我演练我的恋爱一样

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我觉得我先这样再那样

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然后对方就可以败到于我的魅力之下

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而实际上呢

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原本计划六点行动

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结果主角之间睡过去了

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到了快七点他才突然想起来

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他本来想去厨房拿斧头

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却发现女房东就在厨房

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连杀人道具他都没拿到

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还是在路边逛街的时候

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突然捡到了一把斧头

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进屋见到老太太

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他一刀把她劈死

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找取财物的时候

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他拿着钥匙的手在一直抖动

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就在他翻找财物的时候

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老太太的妹妹突然回来了

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他一眼撞见案发现场

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在慌乱之中

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主角一刀砍死了他的妹妹

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这个完全无辜的人

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而就在他做所有这一切的时候

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他竟然没有关房间的门

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也就是说

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他的整个杀人过程

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都是开着门做的

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余华曾经评价托斯托耶夫斯基的小说

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读他的小说就像被轰炸了一般

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我甚至怀疑这个托斯他是不是真的杀过人

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因为他对这个杀人后的心理描述实在是太精彩了

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真的是把人性的方方面面都把玩的极其的透彻

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杀完人之后呢

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首先主角陷入了一种无穷的惊慌中

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他就好像断片了一样

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他梦游式的跑回了家中倒头就睡了

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等他惊醒后他突然发现

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我竟然都没有处理我案发后的证据

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于是他把自己脱光

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检查衣服上的血迹

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做完这些他又累倒

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结果过了五分钟又突然跳起来

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说不对口袋口袋里还有血

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等他处理完呢

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他又惶恐的想到

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也许自己现在已经陷入了精神错乱

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说不定自己现在全身都沾满了血

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只是他看不见而已

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等主角醒来呢

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很快就有人通知他

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让他去警察局走一趟

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他心想不会吧

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这么快就败露了吗

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他甚至惶恐的觉得

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自己一进去就要跪倒在警察面前

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把一切都如实招来

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后来他发现呢

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不是审杀人

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是审他催债的

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他马上就迎来一种制服般的狂喜

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按照咱正常人的思路

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你没被发现

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接下来你总该谨慎点吧

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但正好相反

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主角陷入了一种极大的愤怒中

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当一个人在非常紧张的时候

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意识到自己突然一下子安全了

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他会觉得他之前的恐慌和惊悚

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都是一种屈辱

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他会想要把这些情绪

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一股脑地发泄到

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当初质问他的人身上

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你不要以为你心怀仁慈

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你宽恕了一个罪人

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他就会感激你

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不的

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他会为之前的恐惧来找你清算

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对警官发完怒之后呢

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紧接着主角又陷入了一种

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无尽的孤独中

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听着周围人嘈杂的声音

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他意识到

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他再也无法和这个世界

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产生什么联系了

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他的内心怀抱着一个巨大的秘密

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而这个秘密他将无法与人分享

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他再也不能用真实的自己

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面对这个世界了

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意识到这一点

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他跟这个世界产生了一种

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无穷无尽的隔阂

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当一个人被整个世界抛弃时

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他会恐惧

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这个恐惧和一开始的不一样

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一开始他是恐惧事情败露

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而现在呢

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他恐惧自己要陷入这种

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无尽的虚无和孤独中

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最后在经历了前面

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这么一大通情绪之后

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主角产生了对一切的厌恶

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他厌恶世界

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厌恶他人

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厌恶自己

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甚至厌恶产生厌恶情绪的当下

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大家想一想啊

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如果你面对一个有罪之人

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犯错之人

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你预备做些什么给他们安慰呢

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大家要记住

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你可以做任何事情

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但千万不要爱他

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更多的爱对于罪人来说

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它是一种折磨

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我们前面说的

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主角的妹妹打算结婚

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就在主角杀完人之后呢

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他妹和他妈就来到了他的城市

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他妈满心欢喜的想要见到主角

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想要握着宝贝儿子的手

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与他贴心的坐在一起

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畅谈上几个小时

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同时呢

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这主角还有一个很热心的朋友

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主角杀完人之后

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陷入了一种精神上的迷乱

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他的朋友呢

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就以为是他压力太大了

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就给他买衣服

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给他做饭

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给他请医生

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甚至要拿着汤吃

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一口一口的给他喂饭吃

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就像你荒废了一天

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你白天什么也没有干

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你干了太多背叛自己的事情

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此时你希望的

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并不是一个人抱着你说

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没关系

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咱明天还可以再来

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此时你希望的就是

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一个人提着你的耳朵告诉你

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你就是一头猪

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你渴望这个皮鞭落下

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这样才会让你感觉好受一点

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所以在这种温馨之中

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这个主角差点要被逼疯了

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他曾经试过试图戴上面具

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跟妈妈表达友好和关爱

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试图在扮演一个儿子

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他告诉他妈

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不要为我担心

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咱们以后的日子还长着呢

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说完这句话

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他的瞳孔骤然缩小

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他意识到

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他再也无法假装过日常的生活了

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再也没有以后了

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他要逃离所有这一切

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他要逃离爱

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这真的是地狱

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地狱就是我再也无法接受别人的爱

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主角所承受的罚还不止于此

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除了他承受内心的折磨之外呢

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还有一个警察一直在追查他

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因为他杀完人之后精神有点错乱

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这警察就注意到了他

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他没有主角杀人的实锤

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所以呢他就想动用心理战

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逼迫这个主角自首

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这一段审讯技巧真的非常绝

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大家都可以学起来啊

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我感觉你可以用它逼迫

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任何出轨对象自爆

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这个警察呢

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先是会找主角聊些有的没的

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比如说天气啊

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新闻啊

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当下青年人的精神状态啊

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在聊闲片的时候

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警察会时不时的提一下案件

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最高明的博弈术

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就是让对方猜不到你的动机

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你就会觉得疑惑

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这人到底是在闲聊呢

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还是在兜圈子

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等着我露出破绽呢

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大家可能会觉得

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审判人呢

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最好不要向他透露

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我知道的东西

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我最好是半遮半掩地试探他

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但这个呢

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只是下等的博弈术

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因为你想要试探对方的时候

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对方是会意识到的

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他也就会有意识地防御

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而这个警官采取的策略是

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直接打名牌

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他直接告诉主角

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现在我在查一个案子

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我掌握什么样的线索

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我推断呢

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罪犯是怎么样杀人的

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他有什么样的心理动机

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鲁绝首先很惊惧

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因为这警官说中了

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但同时他又更晕了

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这到底是要干啥

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你为什么会把你知道的

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所有的线索都告诉我

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同时呢

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这个警察还表现出了

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一种对于罪犯的同情

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他甚至站在罪犯的角度说

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其实我也能理解

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他为什么杀人了

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现在呢

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我抓他比不抓他

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更让他痛苦

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你说我抓了他吧

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他反而陷入一种安定中

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如果我不抓他

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他就会承受这种惶恐与恐惧

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警察也没有完全放弃

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审讯

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就是在说这些的同时呢

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他会突然提上一句

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哎

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那说起杀人

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那天晚上七点

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你是在哪里啊

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主角在里面就是又提防

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又困惑又惊惧

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当你琢磨不清对方的意图时

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你会恼羞成怒

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主角就感觉

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你这是在玩我呢

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他想问清楚

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哎

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你到底想干嘛

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你就直说

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你是不是怀疑我杀人

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等主角最后忍不了了

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把拳头捶在桌子上时

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哎

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这警察又说

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兄弟别生气

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咱再聊点日常的

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最绝的是什么

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就是在这个景观

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即将攻破主角的心理防线

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你眼见着

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主角马上就要跪倒在地

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说杀人的就是我

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你能把我砸地

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的时候

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一个油漆工突然出来

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高呼杀人的是我

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这简直就是在最高潮的时候

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停下来

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这是一个绝美的悬停

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我都不敢想

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这是怎么样精神SM呀

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我支持他俩组CP

481
00:14:44,500 --> 00:14:47,160
要是我是主角

482
00:14:47,160 --> 00:14:49,050
我感觉我都能满地打滚

483
00:14:49,050 --> 00:14:50,600
这个顶替的游七公

484
00:14:50,600 --> 00:14:52,330
其实是警官有意安排的

485
00:14:52,330 --> 00:14:54,860
他就是想要揉搓主角的心理

486
00:14:54,860 --> 00:14:57,790
看他在狂喜与惊惧之间反复

487
00:14:57,790 --> 00:14:59,250
最后当所有人都认为

488
00:14:59,250 --> 00:15:00,390
主角是被冤枉的

489
00:15:00,390 --> 00:15:02,910
当这个游七公就要上刑场的时候

490
00:15:02,910 --> 00:15:04,710
警官找到了主角

491
00:15:04,710 --> 00:15:06,670
他先是对他表达了安慰

492
00:15:06,670 --> 00:15:08,250
说哎没想到

493
00:15:08,250 --> 00:15:10,020
原来犯罪的是另外一个人

494
00:15:10,020 --> 00:15:11,860
同时对他表达了道歉

495
00:15:11,860 --> 00:15:14,720
说之前我真是不该为难你

496
00:15:14,720 --> 00:15:16,830
但是下一句没有任何铺垫

497
00:15:16,830 --> 00:15:19,110
他直接说杀人的是你

498
00:15:19,110 --> 00:15:21,220
真的是拿在手里揉搓

499
00:15:21,220 --> 00:15:23,080
主角真的是惨兮兮

500
00:15:23,080 --> 00:15:25,940
他一开始以为自己是拿破仑

501
00:15:25,940 --> 00:15:27,280
以为自己是强人

502
00:15:27,280 --> 00:15:28,730
能跨越道德的底线

503
00:15:28,730 --> 00:15:30,640
把权力握在手中

504
00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:32,910
但他高估了自己对恶的承受力

505
00:15:32,910 --> 00:15:34,230
原来他这么怂

506
00:15:34,230 --> 00:15:36,460
他杀人的过程如此慌乱

507
00:15:36,460 --> 00:15:38,390
甚至还误杀了一个无辜的人

508
00:15:38,390 --> 00:15:39,580
结束之后

509
00:15:39,580 --> 00:15:41,510
不但要面对这个

510
00:15:41,510 --> 00:15:42,980
再也无法去爱的世界

511
00:15:42,980 --> 00:15:44,870
还要陷入对自己的孤独

512
00:15:44,870 --> 00:15:46,430
恐惧和厌恶中

513
00:15:46,430 --> 00:15:49,090
当一个人沉溺于自己的思想时

514
00:15:49,090 --> 00:15:50,990
他会觉得自己顶天立地

515
00:15:50,990 --> 00:15:53,060
但真正经历事件时

516
00:15:53,060 --> 00:15:56,560
他却发现自己不过也是一个普通人

517
00:15:56,560 --> 00:15:58,470
这一段是罚

518
00:15:58,470 --> 00:16:00,180
虽然我们很少杀人

519
00:16:00,180 --> 00:16:01,390
但在日常生活中

520
00:16:01,390 --> 00:16:02,720
大家也会做一些蠢事

521
00:16:02,720 --> 00:16:05,310
我们内心所受的纠结和内耗

522
00:16:05,310 --> 00:16:06,620
并不一定比主角少

523
00:16:06,620 --> 00:16:08,710
当你背离生活时

524
00:16:08,710 --> 00:16:10,670
你就会受到罚

525
00:16:10,670 --> 00:16:11,830
就像我们说的

526
00:16:11,830 --> 00:16:13,280
怎么样可以睡一个好觉呢

527
00:16:13,280 --> 00:16:15,710
它不是你完成了什么大使命大事件

528
00:16:15,710 --> 00:16:17,330
就是你今天运动了

529
00:16:17,330 --> 00:16:18,220
工作都干完了

530
00:16:18,220 --> 00:16:19,240
也都吃了饭

531
00:16:19,240 --> 00:16:20,860
到了晚上你就可以睡个好觉

532
00:16:20,860 --> 00:16:25,570
当我忠实的毫无杂念的真诚的生活时

533
00:16:25,570 --> 00:16:26,940
我就可以睡一个好觉

534
00:16:26,940 --> 00:16:28,900
如果只是罪与罚

535
00:16:28,900 --> 00:16:31,160
那这本书的调子就会走向黑暗

536
00:16:31,160 --> 00:16:32,280
最后呢

537
00:16:32,280 --> 00:16:34,470
作者还讨论了一个非常关键的问题

538
00:16:34,470 --> 00:16:37,560
就是如果一个人杀人了

539
00:16:37,560 --> 00:16:39,510
他有机会重新开始吗

540
00:16:39,510 --> 00:16:41,890
如果一个人陷于生活的洼地

541
00:16:41,890 --> 00:16:43,330
并深陷其中

542
00:16:43,330 --> 00:16:46,370
他到底还有可能不继续变形

543
00:16:46,370 --> 00:16:48,190
并找到光明吗

544
00:16:48,190 --> 00:16:49,480
大家觉得吗

545
00:16:49,480 --> 00:16:52,080
在这种反复的内心垂倒下

546
00:16:52,080 --> 00:16:53,870
主角终于受不了了

547
00:16:53,870 --> 00:16:56,540
他再也无法一个人承受这些罪责

548
00:16:56,540 --> 00:16:58,480
于是他打算找一个人坦白

549
00:16:58,480 --> 00:16:59,990
他找了谁呢

550
00:16:59,990 --> 00:17:01,930
一个妓女名叫索尼亚

551
00:17:01,930 --> 00:17:04,030
索尼亚不过只有18岁

552
00:17:04,030 --> 00:17:06,640
她的妈妈是一个活在幻想里的疯子

553
00:17:06,640 --> 00:17:07,620
她爸是一个酒鬼

554
00:17:07,620 --> 00:17:09,610
她还有两个年幼的弟弟妹妹

555
00:17:09,610 --> 00:17:10,650
为了养活家庭

556
00:17:10,650 --> 00:17:11,820
她不得不去做妓女

557
00:17:11,820 --> 00:17:14,170
主角杀死的那个老太婆的妹妹

558
00:17:14,170 --> 00:17:15,220
就是索尼亚的朋友

559
00:17:15,220 --> 00:17:17,210
主角想找妓女求助呢

560
00:17:17,210 --> 00:17:19,260
是因为他觉得妓女也是有罪之人

561
00:17:19,260 --> 00:17:21,560
他身边的人要么太美好

562
00:17:21,560 --> 00:17:22,390
要么太光明

563
00:17:22,390 --> 00:17:23,630
和他们在一起

564
00:17:23,630 --> 00:17:24,930
他会觉得低人意的

565
00:17:24,930 --> 00:17:25,770
而面对妓女

566
00:17:25,770 --> 00:17:26,730
他会觉得安全

567
00:17:26,730 --> 00:17:29,480
在主角说出自己的秘密之前

568
00:17:29,480 --> 00:17:32,110
他先是说了很多刺激索尼亚的话

569
00:17:32,110 --> 00:17:33,460
大意就是说

570
00:17:33,460 --> 00:17:34,670
你看你这么惨

571
00:17:34,670 --> 00:17:35,660
养活一家人

572
00:17:35,660 --> 00:17:37,320
最后也不会有什么好结果的

573
00:17:37,320 --> 00:17:38,310
你妈身体也不好

574
00:17:38,310 --> 00:17:39,000
用不了多久

575
00:17:39,000 --> 00:17:39,730
她就会死掉

576
00:17:39,730 --> 00:17:41,360
然后把两个弟弟妹妹留给你

577
00:17:41,360 --> 00:17:42,730
你也很有可能

578
00:17:42,730 --> 00:17:43,620
因为你的工作

579
00:17:43,620 --> 00:17:44,940
被抓到监狱里面去

580
00:17:44,940 --> 00:17:46,130
这时你的弟弟妹妹

581
00:17:46,130 --> 00:17:47,100
就会流落街头

582
00:17:47,100 --> 00:17:47,790
哎呀

583
00:17:47,790 --> 00:17:48,780
这个没妈的孩子

584
00:17:48,780 --> 00:17:49,890
那是真可怜

585
00:17:50,060 --> 00:17:50,860
到了街上了

586
00:17:50,860 --> 00:17:52,590
他们大概率就是慢意乞讨

587
00:17:52,590 --> 00:17:54,020
然后过早的死掉

588
00:17:54,020 --> 00:17:57,040
你说你每天付出这些这么辛苦

589
00:17:57,040 --> 00:17:58,430
你最后能得到啥呢

590
00:17:58,430 --> 00:18:00,640
索尼亚听到之后非常痛苦

591
00:18:00,640 --> 00:18:01,860
但索尼亚越痛苦

592
00:18:01,860 --> 00:18:02,850
主角说的越起劲

593
00:18:02,850 --> 00:18:04,540
主角之所以这么做

594
00:18:04,540 --> 00:18:06,420
他不是为了故意要刺激索尼亚

595
00:18:06,420 --> 00:18:08,360
他其实是在表达他自己

596
00:18:08,360 --> 00:18:10,400
他想把索尼亚逼到墙角

597
00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:12,120
因为他认为他的生活

598
00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:13,850
也曾经被逼到过墙角

599
00:18:13,850 --> 00:18:15,360
索尼亚是一个谦卑的人

600
00:18:15,360 --> 00:18:16,860
他因为妓女的身份

601
00:18:16,860 --> 00:18:18,580
在生活中经常会受到歧视

602
00:18:18,580 --> 00:18:20,540
房东太太还会把他赶出去

603
00:18:20,540 --> 00:18:23,160
虽然他保持着真善美

604
00:18:23,160 --> 00:18:24,980
但他一直是夹着尾巴

605
00:18:24,980 --> 00:18:26,340
小心翼翼的做人

606
00:18:26,340 --> 00:18:28,840
他一直对生活的苦难

607
00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:30,970
处于一种半逃避的容忍状态

608
00:18:30,970 --> 00:18:32,300
在主角的刺激下

609
00:18:32,300 --> 00:18:33,140
索尼亚的生活

610
00:18:33,140 --> 00:18:35,570
第一次被如此真实的刺穿

611
00:18:35,570 --> 00:18:36,940
其中有一个情节是

612
00:18:36,940 --> 00:18:39,230
主角逼迫索尼亚去念圣经

613
00:18:39,230 --> 00:18:41,240
主角是想通过这个行为

614
00:18:41,240 --> 00:18:43,810
逼迫索尼亚看清信仰和救赎的虚伪

615
00:18:43,810 --> 00:18:45,400
他要让索尼亚知道

616
00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:47,180
没有什么可以挽救生活

617
00:18:47,180 --> 00:18:49,800
这样主角的做法就没有错

618
00:18:49,800 --> 00:18:51,160
但是另外一方面

619
00:18:51,160 --> 00:18:53,810
他又非常渴望索尼亚能给他提供指引

620
00:18:53,810 --> 00:18:56,130
难道面对生活的操蛋

621
00:18:56,130 --> 00:18:58,770
一个人就是要么自杀要么堕落吗

622
00:18:58,770 --> 00:19:02,490
他渴望索尼亚给他指出第三条路

623
00:19:02,490 --> 00:19:05,630
主角的质问让索尼亚第一次直面了他的生活

624
00:19:05,630 --> 00:19:09,240
也第一次有意识地对生活做出了反抗

625
00:19:09,240 --> 00:19:13,030
于是索尼亚一反平时的柔弱和平和

626
00:19:13,030 --> 00:19:14,920
他的脸颊红扑扑的

627
00:19:14,920 --> 00:19:16,140
他盯着主角

628
00:19:16,140 --> 00:19:21,020
坚定的清晰的一字一句的念出了圣经

629
00:19:21,020 --> 00:19:23,530
这一段的情绪真的非常高涨

630
00:19:23,530 --> 00:19:24,570
张力拉法

631
00:19:24,570 --> 00:19:26,440
在读圣经的过程中

632
00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:28,450
主角寻求的是救赎

633
00:19:28,450 --> 00:19:30,650
而索尼亚寻求的是反抗

634
00:19:30,650 --> 00:19:31,790
我一直认为

635
00:19:31,790 --> 00:19:33,250
他俩之间所产生的

636
00:19:33,250 --> 00:19:35,960
不能称之为是爱情

637
00:19:35,960 --> 00:19:37,610
而是一种相互救赎

638
00:19:37,610 --> 00:19:38,460
读完圣经后

639
00:19:38,460 --> 00:19:39,800
主角向索尼亚坦白

640
00:19:39,800 --> 00:19:40,710
我杀了人

641
00:19:40,710 --> 00:19:42,550
索尼亚说了一句话

642
00:19:42,550 --> 00:19:44,490
就是前面都是痛苦和挣扎

643
00:19:44,490 --> 00:19:45,500
都是狂风骤雨

644
00:19:45,500 --> 00:19:46,330
阴云密布

645
00:19:46,330 --> 00:19:48,080
但是当这句话出来之后

646
00:19:48,080 --> 00:19:50,320
所有的压力都消除了

647
00:19:50,320 --> 00:19:51,540
大家可以猜一下

648
00:19:51,540 --> 00:19:52,360
他说的是什么

649
00:19:52,360 --> 00:19:55,490
索尼亚听到后一下子跪倒了

650
00:19:55,490 --> 00:19:57,100
他哭着说

651
00:19:57,100 --> 00:20:00,030
您对自己都做了什么啊

652
00:20:00,030 --> 00:20:01,590
我当时看到这句话

653
00:20:01,590 --> 00:20:02,780
我真的马上哭了

654
00:20:02,780 --> 00:20:04,840
因为主角一直认为

655
00:20:04,840 --> 00:20:06,520
自己是一个有罪之人

656
00:20:06,520 --> 00:20:08,350
而只有索尼亚点出了

657
00:20:08,350 --> 00:20:09,580
主角最大的罪

658
00:20:09,580 --> 00:20:11,320
其实是对自己的罪

659
00:20:11,320 --> 00:20:12,640
主角一直认为

660
00:20:12,640 --> 00:20:14,050
自己应该受到审判

661
00:20:14,050 --> 00:20:17,070
而索尼亚穿过了表象

662
00:20:17,070 --> 00:20:19,240
直接共情并触摸到了

663
00:20:19,240 --> 00:20:22,340
主角那颗承受着责罚的内心

664
00:20:22,340 --> 00:20:24,180
他狠狠抱住主角说

665
00:20:24,180 --> 00:20:26,350
如今这个世上

666
00:20:26,350 --> 00:20:28,170
再没有任何一个人

667
00:20:28,170 --> 00:20:30,040
比您更不幸了

668
00:20:30,040 --> 00:20:32,090
索尼亚劝说主角去自首

669
00:20:32,090 --> 00:20:34,000
他不是站在审判的视角上

670
00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:35,400
而是站在理解的视角上

671
00:20:35,400 --> 00:20:37,040
因为如果你不去自首

672
00:20:37,040 --> 00:20:37,820
不去忏悔

673
00:20:37,820 --> 00:20:39,360
你的生活就无法开始

674
00:20:39,360 --> 00:20:40,640
索尼亚说

675
00:20:40,640 --> 00:20:43,120
如果您要被流放西伯利亚

676
00:20:43,120 --> 00:20:45,520
我将和您一起背上十字架

677
00:20:45,520 --> 00:20:47,120
索尼亚的生活成了一个

678
00:20:47,120 --> 00:20:49,010
非常鲜明的存在证明

679
00:20:49,010 --> 00:20:51,140
证明了即使被生活践踏

680
00:20:51,140 --> 00:20:52,880
也依旧可以保持光明

681
00:20:52,880 --> 00:20:56,900
这种信仰的纯洁和无条件的共情震慑住了主角

682
00:20:56,900 --> 00:20:59,020
最初主角不愿意

683
00:20:59,020 --> 00:21:01,980
但索尼亚执意陪他走向警局

684
00:21:01,980 --> 00:21:04,430
中间有好几次他都想逃掉

685
00:21:04,430 --> 00:21:07,900
但直到在人群中他看到了索尼亚的脸

686
00:21:07,900 --> 00:21:11,090
他意识到如果他还想再面对生活

687
00:21:11,090 --> 00:21:12,650
还想再面对索尼亚

688
00:21:12,650 --> 00:21:14,600
他就不得不去自首

689
00:21:14,600 --> 00:21:17,550
那一刻主角并不是被说服了

690
00:21:17,550 --> 00:21:19,840
而是他意识到他并不是强人

691
00:21:19,840 --> 00:21:21,520
他只是一个人

692
00:21:21,520 --> 00:21:23,290
直到在监狱服刑期间

693
00:21:23,290 --> 00:21:24,610
主角还在反思他的理论

694
00:21:24,610 --> 00:21:25,740
他悲伤的发现

695
00:21:25,740 --> 00:21:28,610
他所犯的错也不是什么独特的错

696
00:21:28,610 --> 00:21:30,700
只不过是一个普通的错误

697
00:21:30,700 --> 00:21:33,570
他所说的刑罚也不是什么神圣的刑罚

698
00:21:33,570 --> 00:21:36,040
也不过就是一个普通的刑罚

699
00:21:36,040 --> 00:21:40,150
他依旧和周围的人和真实的生活保持着距离

700
00:21:40,150 --> 00:21:42,000
索尼亚会定时去看他

701
00:21:42,000 --> 00:21:44,740
但直到有一次他没有来

702
00:21:44,740 --> 00:21:47,910
主角发现自己的内心涌起了无限的担忧

703
00:21:47,910 --> 00:21:49,560
等到索尼亚再来时

704
00:21:49,560 --> 00:21:52,870
那一刻他终于牵起了索尼亚的手

705
00:21:52,870 --> 00:21:55,190
至此就书完成

706
00:21:55,190 --> 00:21:56,740
青年人包括我

707
00:21:56,740 --> 00:21:58,720
我们总喜欢过一种美学上的生活

708
00:21:58,720 --> 00:22:00,820
我们喜欢眯起眼睛看这个世界

709
00:22:00,820 --> 00:22:04,190
我们总认为自己知晓了生活的意义

710
00:22:04,190 --> 00:22:06,110
我们总想凌驾于生活之上

711
00:22:06,110 --> 00:22:07,930
成为一个知晓全部秘密的人

712
00:22:07,930 --> 00:22:09,510
我们构建自己的理论

713
00:22:09,510 --> 00:22:10,600
确认自己的目标

714
00:22:10,600 --> 00:22:13,060
并在自己的理论中成为王者

715
00:22:13,060 --> 00:22:15,230
我们非常自信地站在起点

716
00:22:15,230 --> 00:22:16,560
去想象未来的生活

717
00:22:16,560 --> 00:22:19,110
我们认为选择A就一定会遇到这些

718
00:22:19,110 --> 00:22:21,180
选择B就一定会过上那样的生活

719
00:22:21,180 --> 00:22:23,150
那么就书是什么呢

720
00:22:23,150 --> 00:22:24,430
救赎就是告诉自己

721
00:22:24,430 --> 00:22:27,220
其实我并不知道我要过上什么样的生活

722
00:22:27,220 --> 00:22:31,000
我也从不声称我掌握了什么生活的真相

723
00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:32,650
救赎就是谦卑的承认

724
00:22:32,650 --> 00:22:34,270
其实我并不了解自己

725
00:22:34,270 --> 00:22:35,560
也不了解世人

726
00:22:35,560 --> 00:22:36,930
救赎就是发现

727
00:22:36,930 --> 00:22:39,300
经过无穷的计算和考量

728
00:22:39,300 --> 00:22:41,440
经过无穷的宏大和神圣

729
00:22:41,440 --> 00:22:42,810
我最终想要的

730
00:22:42,810 --> 00:22:45,100
也不过是一点来自他人的爱

731
00:22:45,100 --> 00:22:47,260
一个握着的生活

732
00:22:47,260 --> 00:22:50,520
救赎就是谦卑的往前生活

733
00:22:50,520 --> 00:22:51,950
直到死去

734
00:22:51,950 --> 00:22:55,080
你所经历的一切都是为了唤醒你

735
00:22:55,080 --> 00:22:56,820
如果爱不能唤醒你

736
00:22:56,820 --> 00:22:58,070
那就用痛苦唤醒你

737
00:22:58,070 --> 00:22:59,330
如果痛苦不能唤醒你

738
00:22:59,330 --> 00:23:01,050
那就用更大的痛苦唤醒你

739
00:23:01,050 --> 00:23:02,760
如果更大的痛苦不能唤醒你

740
00:23:02,760 --> 00:23:03,750
那就用失去唤醒你

741
00:23:03,750 --> 00:23:04,640
如果失去不能唤醒你

742
00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:05,770
那就用生命唤醒你

743
00:23:05,770 --> 00:23:07,800
如果生命不能唤醒你

744
00:23:07,800 --> 00:23:10,390
那就用轮回唤醒你

745
00:23:10,390 --> 00:23:12,030
直到你醒来

746
00:23:12,030 --> 00:23:14,010
在托斯托耶夫斯集

747
00:23:14,010 --> 00:23:15,600
有一句非常著名的金句

748
00:23:15,600 --> 00:23:18,510
爱生活不要爱生活的意义

749
00:23:18,510 --> 00:23:19,940
我想罪与罚这本书

750
00:23:19,940 --> 00:23:21,190
就是对这句话的诠释

751
00:23:21,190 --> 00:23:22,670
生活中的许多烦恼

752
00:23:22,670 --> 00:23:24,550
我们内心所受到的刑罚

753
00:23:24,550 --> 00:23:25,730
都是因为

754
00:23:25,730 --> 00:23:27,780
我们太过于想要找到生活的意义

755
00:23:27,780 --> 00:23:29,430
而忽视了真实的生活

756
00:23:29,430 --> 00:23:32,410
不如就这样生活吧

757
00:23:32,410 --> 00:23:33,260
五一假期

758
00:23:33,260 --> 00:23:35,600
邀请大家都去见见朋友

759
00:23:35,600 --> 00:23:37,270
或者见见小狗也行

760
00:23:37,270 --> 00:23:38,350
摸一摸它们

761
00:23:38,350 --> 00:23:40,300
人生并不会在某个节点

762
00:23:40,300 --> 00:23:41,470
就有盖光的地方

763
00:23:41,470 --> 00:23:44,230
前面的路要走

764
00:23:44,230 --> 00:23:45,860
下期再见